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Spaz Sasuke

... I think I was high when I drew this. :iconimhighplz:
But it's definitely worth it. 8D;;
Knowing me, Sasuke's definitely naked inside. O:

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Well...

Journal Entry: Tue Nov 10, 2009, 2:07 AM
Looks like everyone else is using the new journal skin privilages, so I might as well.
This journal's going to be kinda depressing, so you don't have to read it.
I can't believe it's gonna be on my front page, but oh well.

Anyway, the year's nearly over, and I have about three weeks left of school.
Thank God. I'm so over school.
I can't wait for next year to come fast enough and wash away all the bad memories of this year.
But the thing is, I don't think it will.
I think next year will be the same.
I mean, the past is not automatically forgotten on will.
This year I've been... encouraged to do things I wouldn't normally do.
And I regret them.
I feel like I've screwed everything up.
And that if I hadn't become part of my group, I wouldn't be blaming myself.
And I wouldn't get the blame from others.
Things would definitely be much different.
And I guess I wish they were.

False hope; desperation.
They crush me constantly.
They were all caused by this year's events.
And I hate it.
I do.

Attention seeking.
Maybe I did do it at some point.
Maybe I actually do it.
But the reassurance I seek is completely real.
I do feel like I need it to hang on.
But I've reached the point where reassurance means nothing.

Worry.
I worry for my family.
I worry for my friends.
I worry for myself.
I worry that I can't live up to standards.
Of everyone else, and myself.
I feel like I need to prove myself.
And I can't.
It's like a struggling battle.
I don't want to care.
But I do.
And I can't do one tiny thing wrong without loathing myself deeply.
Tripping; spelling errors; mispronunciation.
Even the smallest of errors.
I can't get rid of them.
They crush me.
They're suffocating me.

Wanting.
"Everybody wants to be wanted."
I quote this from one of the most amazing people I've ever met.
She may not believe it, but she's changed me.
And I don't regret it.
But what I do regret is how I seek romance.
How I want to be loved.
How I want feelings to be returned.
I want the feeling of intimacy that I don't have.
And I feel stupid for being so needy.

Jealousy.
The feeling I've grown so accustomed to.
But not really.
Always old, yet always new.
So easily sparked.
I hate myself for feeling it.

Regret; guilt.
Flooding me every single day.
I can't really say much more than this.
I don't want to go into detail.

All these things, and more, cross my mind everyday.
I know they will for a long time now.
I hate it.
But then again... I'm grateful.
I guess I'm glad I got through the year.
And maybe it was a good thing to go through this.
But I'm so emotionally drained.
I think I could explode.
And I know I'm not the only one who feels this.
What I hate is that it's all negative.
I haven't had a day without any negative thoughts.
Without any doubt or regret.
Without any worry.

I want things to turn up.
But I know it'll take time.
And at the moment, we're all extremely messed up kids.
And that'll take time to fix too.
I just hope we can all survive until then.

  • Mood: Depressed
  • Listening to: Breaking The Habit - Linkin Park
  • Reading: Kibishiku Aishite

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  • Interests: anime, manga, music, internet, writing, drawing, reading, yaoi, shounen-ai
  • Favourite band or musician: Too many to list.
  • Favourite genre of music: Aternative, rock, indie, emo, screamo, metal, J-rock, J-pop, etc
  • Favourite artist: I like manga artists - Kawai Touko, Matsuri Hino, Minami Haruka, Shungiku Nakamura, etc.
  • Favourite style of art: drawing, manga, any form of literature
  • MP3 player of choice: my iPod. <3
  • Favourite cartoon character: Sasuke Uchiha, Zero Kiryuu, Yuki Sohma, Ritsuka Aoyagi, Hiroki Kamijou, Senri Shiki and more...

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Please don't judge me by my username. -facepalm-
Blah. I can't even get my devID section right. =___=
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:tighthug: Thanks for the :+fav:! :meow:

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:tighthug: lol. Thanks for the watch. :meow:

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Thankyou again for another fave. ^^ Are you having fun while admiring my gems? There are plenty more to be uncovered.

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Thankyou, thankyou, thankyou, thankyou for the faves!! :D

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thansk for faving <33
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Thankyou very much for faving my RueXMint prose 'Dance for Me?'! ^^

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